I as sat there and gazed across at Jesus, he began to ask me questions. "Why is it you feel at peace right now, here, with m
e?" he asked. I thought for a while about this question. Why is it I have no tightness in my chest, never worry, and just exist when I am in my garden with God? Hmmm? I am ready to respond. "Well" I say, "I do not have to worry about, my family's well-being, finances, or about being safe, in general. I know you I am safe and you are taking care of me." I thought that was a really good answer. Apparently it was not.
Jesus smiled compassionately and said, "You know I am with you all the time even outside our garden, right?" Ugh He got me there. "Yes," I reply back. He continues, "You know through your faith I work miracles, right?" Ugh I am feeling like a child being called on the "rules" of proper behavior. "Yes," I reply back. He asks, “Tell me what makes you doubt your faith to be as powerful a tool as you a creator?" Hmmm? I think for a moment, create myself a nice cup of tea and ponder the question for a bit, purposefully.
"I guess there is no reason for me to doubt my faith and I really did not think I was doing so." I then put my head down a bit and say, "I guess I was if I am allowing fear to take over, huh?" He says nothing and just smiles reassuringly like this is all good…."trust me."
"Is that what life comes down too?" I ask sheepishly. I continue on to say, "I mean is that all we really need to do is connect to you, acknowledge fear if it exists, move past the fear to feel good and make our decision?" He looks at me and says, "You tell me. This "process" you describe is really your innate soul "being" and creating while on Earth." "Ok, that sounds a little out there," I say.
"So how do get started?" I ask Him. "Baby steps," he replies as he turns to look at the baby animals in our Garden. "Baby steps all add up to big change one small change at a time." He says.
"You mean like use my faith on something small and know it will come to pass and then move on to another one?" I ask as I follow his lead to adorn the baby bunnies and deer playing in our garden.
"Well, faith is more than just believing. It is taking action that you believe you will be successful." He replies. "For example, when you do not have the funds available yet you step out in faith to purchase a needed item." He states. "Just as I always provide for the birds, yet they need to go and get their food." He continues. "I always make sure you will be taken care of so fear is not required"
"Of course," He continues "this does not mean you act without responsibility and accountability to make foolish decisions, either." "Like what?" I ask Him.
"Well, if the squirrels decided to never go and get their acorns for winter assuming they will always have it available, winter will come upon them and they will have nothing." He says. "The squirrel knows I am there to take care of it. It will take responsibility and accountability for himself and his family to get acorns at the right time store them and be well prepared for winter." He says as he looks back towards me. "Do you understand?" He asks.
"Yes. For a person it would be making sure they take responsibility for their actions, well-being and safety, leaving the bigger picture to God," I say. He replies, "In the bigger picture, you can state your intentions and know that you will receive the resources, safety and support you need." He adds, "As long as you are at peace and especially if you are passionate about the reason for your intent" "I know if you are or not and also know what is best for you in the long run."
I started to get a bit drowsy. I thanked Him and then decided to lie down beside Him and the animals to take a nap. I like many people must practice and be aware of our thoughts, actions and feelings throughout our day. That is a lot of worry don't you think? I guess if we look at this the other way, meaning, if we are at peace with this "process" then taking responsibility for our thoughts, feelings and emotions is doable and achievable. The outcome will only be more joy and peace for us.
I awake feeling very well rested and adjusted. My fears are a bit more under controlled and I know now that when I fear, it’s probably a good thing. When I fear, it is a matter of trust to understand if the action I am most wary about engaging in is something I really want in my life. Will it be of benefit to others? Will it take away from anyone? If the answers to these questions are appropriate then I must trust in Him to guide, support and provide me through the decision, action and implementation of my intentions.
I stand up and hug Him so tight I think I am crushing Him. He laughs with joy. I thank Him profusely and He knows I am good to 
go. In an instant, my cloud car is waiting for me. I hop in feeling "okay" and quite capable of pulling this "process" off daily. In a heartbeat, I am home and I ready to begin setting my baby intentions to continue building my faith.
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Colleen is a best selling author of Overcomers, Inc. released 10/22/09 hitting #1 in Inspirational, Motivational and Spiritual. Do you have your copy yet? http://www.els4kids.com/overcomers-inc
